This morning I awoke, put another pillow under my head, laid back and with eyes closed whispered, “Good morning, Father. Good morning, Lord Jesus.” Able to do this because of the Spirit within me. Kind of Trinitarian moment, it now occurs to me.
I don’t do this every morning. Not even most mornings. In fact, rarely do I awake with such an immediate awareness of God’s abiding presence. But this morning I did. Wondering if it wasn’t intended to set me up for one of my favorite readings every year — Moses’s one-on-one with God (Ex. 33) after the golden calf incident (Ex. 32).
Here’s what I’m hovering over this morning:
And it came to pass, when Moses entered the tabernacle, that the pillar of cloud descended and stood at the door of the tabernacle, and the LORD talked with Moses. . . . So the LORD spoke to Moses face to face, as a man speaks to his friend.
(Exodus 33:9, 11a ESV)
And the LORD said to Moses, “This very thing that you have spoken I will do, for you have found favor in My sight, and I know you by name.”
(Exodus 33:17 ESV)
So much in Exodus 33 to stir the soul. The stirred up soul of Moses a catalyst for all who’d hunger and thirst for an up-close and personal encounter of the divine kind. Show me Your ways that I may know You. . . . If Your presence will not go with me, I don’t wanna go. . . . Please show me Your glory! (Ex. 33:13, 15, 18)
Thus, the pervasive passion of one accustomed to meeting God in the place where the glory dwelt. Thus, the persistent plea of one who knew what it was to speak with the LORD face to face. Thus the personal persuasion of someone who God knows by name. Maybe the sort of things someone might say who wakes up in the morning and first thinks, “Good morning, Father.”
I don’t’ speak face to face with the God of glory, but His Spirit bears witness with my spirit that I’m a child of God (Rom. 8:16). Sounds pretty intimate to me. You might even argue closer than face to face.
And what I hear Him saying this morning through His word is, “I know you by name.” As Gill puts it in his commentary, “I have a particular and special knowledge of thee, and distinguished thee from others, and have a personal affection for thee.”
He knows my name. And all the good, bad, and ugly that comes with it. Intimately familiar with all my fears, failings, and frailty. Knowing, better than I know myself, my struggles and their source. Yet still whispering back to me, “You have found favor in My sight.”
He knows my name. A name written in His book (Ex. 32:32). Written in red by the blood of Jesus. Ready, willing, and able to show me His way, send me with His presence, and reveal to me His glory. Not because of who I am. Despite what I have done. But only because I have found favor in His sight.
And that’s how come, while not yet face to face, yet faith to face, I can awake and whisper, “Good morning, Father!”
Such wondrous grace. One day to behold His unimaginable glory.